Personal Blog

I'm not sure if it's common knowledge to most of my friends but I am actually engaged. I have been engaged for a whole year now to my partner and best friend, Luke.
Recently I had moved to Townsville in the hopes to pursue some form of lifestyle that included making me a student and fiercely independent of him. At that point in my life I believed I was being pushed out of my home because I wasn't good enough for my partner and that I had to prove myself worthy in some sort of way. But that just proves how much of a drama queen I really am for the love and dedication Luke has shown me in the last couple of months has been heart warming. Ever since I have moved back here to Mount Isa I have been continuously shown how much I mean to him and all the doubts I had gathered in our separation just seem minuscule or overreacted.
Now with that being said, Luke and I have set a wedding date. Which I am pleased to explain and yet anxious to anticipate, that it is soon! Very soon! August 28th, 2010 soon!
Everything is under-way and we're making the event as simple as possible but as lovely as possible. I won't be having my dream wedding with everyone I love there and the beautiful gardens or the fancy dancy reception at a beach side resort. But that's okay. I didn't have that much money to begin with.
Luke and I are having our honeymoon next year in Tasmania so that will be lovely and I have been promised to spare no expense for the event. It'll be my dream honeymoon (involving Cabins and snow!!)

So here I am. From feeling that my life was on some ultimate change in Townsville, that I was heading towards a different direction than Luke and it was making me miserable but inevitable. To being back the Isa, with Luke and his charming young man, Edward, and feeling like I finally belong and not forgetting to mention getting married in 2 months or so! Things are just happening you know? All these changes and I can't wait to finally have the life I deserve to have.

I was wondering whether you had anything to say in response to what I put down? I'm not promising I blog all the time but I will try at least once a week. That sounds terrible doesn't it? Why bother creating one of these things and not using it on a regular basis? However in that respect when I reflect I also like a little bit of feedback. HELL NO on the unnecessary criticism. But yes on some constructive feedback and general kindness and positivity. Then maybe I would make it a daily routine to reflect and divulge into this form of self expression. 

I haven't really been able to get back into blogging. Figures right? Once I stop there is like this huge gap between the next time I do. It's stupid. But anyway, I'm blogging today. Mainly cause everything sucks. I'm like on this whirlwind path of uncertainty and disappointment.

So if you haven't already heard via Facebook I am moving back to Townsville.

I feel quite fortunate right now. I have done quite a lot of work on this site on my own and feeling quite confident about this PCA. On top of all that, I received an early Christmas present from my mum, some Christmas money. She tells me not to spend it on people's presents because she's giving it to me for my own self use because I am so self less and I am extremely unemployed. So I decided the money should go to Christmas groceries. Luke and I can have a wonderful Christmas weekend without a bare fridge or pantry. I'd like that. Knowing we have nice food to eat on this special occasion and that I am contributing to it, makes unemployment feel less miserable. I love my family so much for being so supportive and I think I'm going to have a pretty good Christmas after all.

I'm trying to write a short biography for the information page on this site. I've started at 2001 and I'm trying to remember how I came about over the last couple of years. It was quite a while ago, but I feel like there is so many things to remember. I can't seem wrap my head around it either. I think I have owned so many domains over the past 8 years and I'm not even sure if I can remember all of them. I also don't remember the first website I ever coded from scratch using notebook. Just at the point of where I am right now- I know how to code html pretty well. Though with that being said I don't remember the first site I ever coded using stylesheet files and div layers? Hah! Or even the first site I ever used with Movable Type! I think I might need some serious track backing? Also try to get my friends to help me remember? I've experienced a crap load over the last 8 years in regards to web design and web creation. Seeing as I have had no previous experience, like taken a class or anything, and being completely bombarded with all this web creation skills in such a short span of time. Oh I don't think it took me that long to get the gist of it all, give or take 4-5 years :p Besides I hung around the right people online. Real smart cookies.

I have been quite the motivated person haven't I? The site is coming along nicely. I'm looking forward to having everything done so I can finish up my PCA. This portfolio site may be a minor detail for this PCA I have to write, but the effort needs to be put in. I won't regret it.

So does unemployment btw. Now that I have all this unemployment time on my hands, I have been able to update and well... ALMOST FINISH this website I started yonkers ago. Not that I should complain? I should use this free time up wisely. Don't think this is a form of procastination!! I know I am terrible for "Procrastination" buuut- I have done all I can to find work. I think I have applied to some many jobs over the past month. A good dozen I reckon. None have gotten back to me, well sorta, except Maccas. Yeah that's right I applied to work at Maccas... That's how desperate I am to work. I need money. There are bloody bills to pay and Luke (my partner) can't afford to earn enough for the both of us on his apprenticeship wages. I really hate unemployment. It drains any power I had left as an individual. I can't fill up my own car with petrol, I can't say "no" to doing the dishes, I can't make any excuses up for anything. Not that I use work for an excuse for everything... Just most things.